November 2010
36 posts
The 22nd
Tomorrow makes it 2 whole months I’ve been living without my heart . Everyday when I go to get in the shower I look in your room only to see you no longer here . The fact that you’re gone still is soooo unbelievable . I love and miss you Mommy Alice , rest in peace love .
I don’t think the 22nd is a good day for me =/
Im starting a new 30day challenge .
Smh , I never finish those damn things .
“You’re right , I CANT be mad at you forever. But there’ll come a...”
– BeeSmith
Idk why I go through periods where I dont blog .
But never fret , I’ll be filling dashboards with EVERYTHING ….
startingggg NOW !
Karma
Smh , got my ass .
Guess it happens to the best of us !
Day 10 : Worst Day of your life
September 22,2010 ,
The love of my life left me forever … Or at least til I can be with her again . Mommy Alice you know I love you beautiful , RIP
My greatgrandmommy was my WHOLE backbone . She made everything better , even when she irritated me .
I love you and miss you ,
-B.Smith <3
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Day 9 : Best day of your life
Well so far it had to be the day when I met my mother . It was awkward and I was too young to react the way I would now ….
But as such a young age (when I thought I didn’t have a mother) it felt good to know that I at least did have one …
I kinda wish she stayed MIA though ….
I’m pretty sure graduation and college acceptances and my wedding will take this off my...
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Who knows how to make tumblr pretty ? I REALLY need someone to do mine !
I scream , cuss and holler because I don’t wanna loose you .
I throw things because I won’t let myself cry .
I ignore you because I can’t keep letting you hurt my feelings ..
I catch an attitude when you pay ppl more attention than you pay me because I want you to myself .
This shit is crazy and I wish you would just pick up on it but it seems I have to explain shit to...
“It damn sure ain’t easy loving you … But what’s life without...”
Day 7 : best job
I’ve only had one real job …
But I guess my favorite “job” is being a big sister .
Day 6 : 5 favorite songs
Love - Keyshia Cole
Hopeful - Faith Evans
No one else - Drake
Monster - Kanye and all lem
The Ambitious Girl - Wale
My list might change but 5,4 and 1 will always make my top .
I forgot to do my challenge from yesterday … Lemme hop on that right now .
When shit doesn’t go my way I start getting frustrated and stressed …
Observe ,
Ain’t none of y’all nigguhs my nigguh sooooo FOH bitch .
Right ?
Day 5 : favorite memory as a child
Whomp Whomp Iont have one .
My childhood wasn’t the best ,
I’m more of a my way or the highway , now or never , all or nothing kinda girl .
shrug but sometimes (very rarely) I’m willing to compromise .
I’m fucking pissed but that’s nothing new . I dnt feel like writing but I need to vent . Soooo I’ll just list this shit ;
You didn’t tell me happy birthday
I hardly even hear from you
You wanna come over but I’m preoccupied so you say now or never
I pick now because I wouldn’t want it to be never so you get here and you txt
You text people
...
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This is where I get my challenges from
tf I hate ppls who only blog pictures .
post some damn words bitch .
“We aint in life to be fair , we in life to win .”
– Nichelle “Nicci” Roane
Day 4 : 10 places you want to visit
10. Canada
9. New Orleans
8. Argentina
7. Brazil
6. London
Its crazy because when I first started talking to you I had all intentions on play you …
I had you sending me pics , txtn me all the time and all lat good shit .
But i started to actually like you … and took you seriously .
Damn was that a mistake because now its like a whole role reversal thing .
Smgdh .
Day 3 : hometown and facts
Well I’m from Baltimore .
[period]
There’s really nothing to say , yall already know what tf it is here .
Love in mysterious ways . . . ,
Problem with boys- they make you think they love you when they don’t.
Problem with girls- they make you think they don’t love you when they do .
“Happy endings are for stories that aren’t finished yet .”
– Angelina Jolie (Mr&Mrs Smith)
Day 2 : Where you got your tumblr name
Well the name of my blog is no looking back and that’s because thats how I’m living …. Or at least trying to .
But I wanna change the name of my blog to LifeIsABEEiotch because it seems most of my posts relate to that .
And I wanna make another blog called ImJustPlayingInTheSand to be the positive counterpart to my negativity …
Idk yet I’m still debating .
Maybe I am fckn mean …. Oh the fuck well .
Guess I’ll just learn to embrace it because I don’t see me changing any time soon .
I see you sent out invitations for your pity party ….
Don’t invite me because I do not care to entertain your hurt feelings .
Man tf up and deal with that shit like every damn body else in the world !
I’ve been just a tad anti today …
shrug
The Real Me.
bewhereiam:
Most people dont know me, but if you really knew me, then you would know that I am a very sensitive person. My feelings get hurt by the slightest things. I’m not a cry-baby and Im not a bitch. I don’t show my feelings in public afraid of what people might think of me. Theres only one person who knows the REAL me and she is no longer in my life. Ugh, not even my best friend knows the...
Got my heart broke when I was 15 …
That was way back . And every nigguh after that was straight pay back !
